No More Regrets. Moving to Thailand.

The beauty of life is that it presents you with so many opportunities.  Some are expected, some are spontaneous, but regardless all require you to make a decision.  When an opportunity arises you have two choices, embrace the moment or seek refuge in your personal safety bubble.  Much of my life I have chosen the latter leaving me filled with regret.  I never studied abroad in college, I didn’t move to Texas for grad school, I turned down a job in New Orleans and I never volunteered to build houses in Honduras just to name a few.  These were all amazing opportunities that I declined because of fear.  Fear that I would not succeed, fear that I would be lonely and trapped in a situation that I could not get out of, fear that I would not meet the expectations of those around me.

Nearly a year ago today I made the decision that fear was no longer going to hold me hostage.  I felt stuck and suffocated in my current life situation.  I had a job I enjoyed but did not challenge me, all my friends were getting married and having children and most importantly I was living in regret of all the opportunities I had run away from.  I knew the only way to get unstuck was to do something drastic.  So, I did just that.  I applied for a teaching job in Thailand, quit my job and sold my house.  I am not going to say I am not filled with fear as I am packing my bags, but I finally feel at ease and comfortable with my decision.  It only took me 32 years, but I am finally comfortable with who I am and what I am able to do.  I have learned that I am capable of handling any situation that I may face in Thailand.  I am finally going to step out of my safety bubble and embrace the moment.  I am finally ready to live with no more regrets.